What Lies Within

fixing the unfinished puzzle

2011-05-18T00:07:00.003+08:00

Yes, managing your money. Last week i was given the opportunity to attend a course about managing your money. Turns out, it was very (and i mean very) beneficial for me. I'm glad that the SPF actually send us for these kind of courses (Y). I got to admit that i somehow i don't really carefully look onto my money management/savings blah blah blah before this. But now i realise how important it is for me, and for years to come. If i don't start at a young age, i'm going to suffer big time in the future. I was one of the youngest one to have attended the course during that time (well then again, i think i AM the youngest lol). And honestly speaking, you really wouldn't want realise that you're in a to be hard-to-survive financial state when you're in your late 20s (and above). Cos looking from the expressions of the other older people in the classroom after understanding the importance of having a good financial state and they're not having one, well that sucks really. It was that kind of time which i realise i'm still grateful to still have the opportunity to make something out of my life. Of course i already have plans for the future, at least for the next 5 years (having it to work out well is another thing), so i just hope it will go as smooth as how i want it to be. On a side note, i'm planning to start up on investment too. Hmmmmm. What do you think?

The mountain is high, the valley is low
And you're confused, on which way to go
So i've come here, to give you a hand
And lead into, the promised land

Life

2011-05-03T00:22:00.002+08:00

Well, life has been a roller coaster ride, that's all i could say. Ever since the last post(which i think was like a decade ago), many has changed. I think the most fulfilling one was for the fact that i got accepted by Bradford university(yeah that's right the one in UK). Having said that, getting accepted is one thing, taking the extra mile to leave your loved ones here in Singapore to starting a new life adapting there is another you see. I still have time to decide but it seems that time is running short. I just don't want to make the wrong choice, ahh i need help.

On the bright side, police life has been meaningful so far. I guess in a way it is kind of good that i'm in the police force. Learning or knowing about the Singapore law, somehow it gives me the extra edge in living in the law & order of Singapore haha. Tiring? Well, like duhh haha.

I should probably it end here for now.

There you were, wild and free
Reaching out like you needed me
A helping hand to make it right
I am holding you all through the night

quality time

2011-02-05T01:35:00.001+08:00

It's been quite some since i had a really quality time with my family. Glad i did. :)

fancy footwork

2011-02-01T00:05:00.002+08:00

The footwork, the dance, the video. It's just amazing

talent

2011-01-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

Bruno Mars is such a talented lad~

future shorts~

2010-12-27T15:56:00.002+08:00

Kudos to my dear friend amenda for sharing this with me! (see i give you credit here ok haha).

the wonders of r&b, not r&d

2010-12-15T18:04:00.003+08:00

It's your boy Jay
Lil Eddie

Two step in the club
club, club
Two step in the club
club, club, club
Two step in the club
when they hear this song
song

Girl you've been weighing heavy on my brain
holding me down like were both in vain
Got my heart on a ball and chain
I just can't let you go
Even if I wanted to

Hitotsu negaii ga kanarareba
Moichido kimi no mukumori wo
Sono mai kitai wa yosenagara
Nagaii yoru hitori de

Having trouble sleeping
Since you gone
I prefer you been laying in my arms
In my arms
Trouble sleeping moichido
Girl your side of the bed still open
Having trouble sleeping

This one here is for all of the lovers
Two step in the club
club, club
Two step in the club
club, club, club
When you hear this song
song song

Girl walking around the city
going insane, insane
Walks and think of me couple drinks yeah
yeah
Travling by myself all these memories
But theres no medicine
Baby your the only cure for me

Having trouble sleeping
since you been gone
I prefer you been laying in my arms
in my arms
Trouble sleeping moichido
Girl your side of the bed still open
Having trouble sleeping

Hitori no heya ja munashisadake
I don't like to stay home
noo
Cause I start to panic
When I begin to wonder where you could be in this world
I just want to be back with my girl
girl girl girl
with my girl
girl back with my girl

Casper uh huh
Its 4 A.M. restless and I can't sleep
Close my eyes but your image still taunts me
It's haunting
This thing that we once had
Girl how such a good thing just went bad
It's like yesterday you was here
We was making love
Now you wont take my clothes off
I think u making up
Is this our last ride
or baby just a phase
We can try to work this out

Two step when you hear this song
song song

Having trouble sleeping
since you been gone
I prefer you been laying in my arms
in my arms
Trouble sleeping moichido
Girl your side of the bed still open
Having trouble sleeping

This one here is for all of the lovers
Two step in the club
lovers, club, lovers, club, lovers,
Having trouble sleeping tonight

Two step in the club
when you hear this song
song song

Come back to bed
Come back to bed
Come back to bed girl

sweet.

This is it

2010-11-01T23:17:00.002+08:00

So this it. The day i'm enlisting into national service has finally come. Tomorrow starts a new journey, a new beginning, a new life to me. I wonder what awaits me on the other side in this coming 2 years but whatever it is, i really hope it's going to be a really interesting ride for me. People say ns waste 2 years of your life, or ns is burden which takes away the greatness of your civilian life. I can choose to think that way too (since it is true in some ways), but if i'm going to be having that kind of mindset for the next 2 years, i might as well quit the ride now. To me, ns comes once in a lifetime. So might as well you enjoy the ride while you can. There's no point dwelling and dreading about the whole fact that you have to serve ns because it would only make you feel down. I can't deny that i'll be needing the support from my family and friends though, because they have been the reason to where am i right now. But till then, i'll be taking things on my own from here.

So this is it. Till then, a new life.

A new life
A new hope
That's my strife
I hope to cope

Wish me luck :)

a bigbang ending indeed

2010-09-09T22:56:00.002+08:00

Yes, that's how ssc ended a few days ago, in a bigbang style ;D. I must say that i really enjoyed myself there. The atmosphere there with the instructors was awesome too, being it with the cadet officers or even the senior cadet specialists. Everyone was friendly, easy going, and was nice to talk too. In the end it was no surprise that when it ended, i almost felt that i wished it didn't, cos the 3 days i had during that time was simply great. Obviously network of friends was increased which is obviously a good thing too. Widening your circle of friends, it's always awesome. Senior spec this was indeed a bigbang!

On a different note, tonight is actually the eve of raya(surprisingly or not surprisingly). Well preparations for the big day is almost ready but somehow, you have this feeling that you are not ready for raya. You feel that something is missing deep within and you just don't know what is it. It is like finding the 'hard to find' missing piece, and honestly speaking, i'm not that ready for raya in a way cos i'm still having the post camp syndrome. It's like having mixed feelings on the big day like hari raya. But what the heck, i'm just going to celebrate it with my loved ones like how it should be- with joy. And along the way, i try not to crash onto all those good foods at once hahaha.

Selamat Hari Raya to all !!

To those who are not celebrating it, just celebrate the fact that it's a public holiday okkk haha

With that, i'm out

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away

Another chapter

2010-08-19T00:16:00.003+08:00

Fasting month has indeed kicked off and is the time of the year again where we hopefully can increase our good deeds and hopefully too, purify ourselves and repent from all those sins that we've done all this while. Fasting has been fine for me ever since it started and i hope it will keep on like that for the whole of this month.

I guess the main challenge i'm facing currently while fasting is the fact that i need to work. Energy being drained out and all those. But i've been positive in facing it for this past few days, just trying more and more to have that mental strength to face the endurance while fasting. I guess sometimes it sucks when you see others going for their lunch breaks while you don't have any aim to go to during your lunch breaks. But i guess that's what fasting month is all about isn't it, mental endurance.

And now since it's the yog break and after this my school term break, i've to use my time up here really wisely. With big projects and assignments coming up(some already on hand), you wouldn't want to be left behind by not keeping yourself up with finishing and settling these stuffs and make sure you don't go beyond that huge dreadful word you call 'deadline'. Well that's how life goes on for me currently. I have no comments but to just wish myself all the best in dealing with all these 'little wonders of life'.

Before i sign out, i leave you with this video song, we'll be a dream. Nice song indeed.

Till then, take care.

Where are you now
Cos i'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like i do

quick videos on the go!

2010-07-30T01:51:00.002+08:00

Well, just to show that my blog is still alive, i'm here to post up some few videos. So enjoy! (if you can)

This guy is really good you know

If you have listen to 'if i had you' by Adam Lambert, you would probably like this one. The acoustic version of it.

And i didn't know that super junior could dance as good as jabbawockeez, not until i watched this one.

And that was quick videos on the go! I'll be back again as soon as my school work says, 'Ok hashim, you can take a break now and start blogging'. Till then, take care.

Maybe if you knew i care
You'd never went nowhere
And you would have been right there
Just so that my heart won't tear

final fever

2010-07-14T01:01:00.003+08:00

Been away for quite some time so i'm going to do a quick post now that i'm here.

I had to work last Sunday but i did managed to catch the world cup final at the event plaza at marina bay sands. The atmosphere there during the match was so amazing that you have to be there for yourself to catch it's brilliance. There's obviously many football fans there, so many that it was almost like mini stadium at the event plaza itself. Of course when there's great atmosphere, the match lived up to it's expectations too. I managed to make friends with some of the fans there, including one football fan who's all the way from Holland just to catch the match here. Amazing huh. And when the goal came in the dying minutes, the atmosphere there was at it's best for the whole night that i've been there. In the end i must say that i've truly enjoyed my time there with my colleagues, only i hoped that one day i could really catch a world cup final live from the stadium itself.

The last airbender movie. I simply can't wait to catch it in theaters, not after catching it's TV series on nickelodeon. I bet it's going to be awesome.

Sam Tsui really has a marvellous voice. This is yet another great pop medley created by him.

I think i have a couple of more videos to post it up but i guess i'll wait until the next post in case i have nothing to blog about when the time comes. So till then take care.

Saying goodbye is nothing to be sad
Cos it just shows about the good times we had
So thank you for the moments that we've gone by
And till we meet again some day, goodbye

movie weekend

2010-06-28T00:31:00.003+08:00

Yes that's right, toy story 3. Went to catch it last Saturday and it was simply awesome. It a must to watch i must say, especially those who have watched it since toy story 1. Most would think that it will be like a typical cartoon movie with jokes and laughter but this one has a little bit of sad and touching moments in it. I must say it's worth the $8. After watching it, i think that it's kind of cool to be a toy and living a live as a toy. Well i guess i shouldn't spoil the show here and so i wont tell much about the movie, so go catch it yourself!

I just finish catching the Germany-England game and boy were there (insanely) alot of comments and critics on facebook. But i guess the Germans deserve to win, they played really well. As for that poor linesman whom didn't count that frank lampard goal in, he must be receiving thousands of death threats in a few days after time. Credits to the Germans again, they earned that victory.

Well, school starting tomorrow so i need to get some sleep now. Shit, just when the world cup is starting to get to it's climax, i cant stay to watch those late night matches because there's school the next morning. What to do right, well i'm off now. =)

I'll be here when you're in need
Only then you can follow my lead
I know it's as cliche as it sounds
But seriously, it's the thought that counts

Round the s'pore flyer

2010-06-20T21:50:00.004+08:00

Today i went to famous Singapore flyer with my family. Despite the high ticket price, we actually had a memorable ride. Since it's a father's day special, we had one ticket free for the 4 tickets purchased. Before the 30 minute ride, i thought it would be quite long and boring, like what the heck am i going to do for 30 minutes inside that capsule. But after that half an hour, i realised that it's not as long as i expected. Even my brother too thought that it doesn't feel long as how long a 30 minute ride should feel. View was terrific for most of the areas around it when looking from the top. I actually had a good view of the city from there. I must say i had a great and memorable ride because it's with my family. Hopefully next time i can have another go with friends instead and make it a memorable one as well.

'the greatest gift that your family can ever give you, is the gift of love '

After i watched this for the first time, i actually paused for a while and thought about the whole video again. It was really very touching.

Short post for today, till then take care :)

Maybe if we meet each other under a different sky
Then things would be much better between you and i
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear

Living the holidays

2010-06-14T00:49:00.006+08:00

It's the holidays now(which i've been hoping for it to come since i don't know when) and it has been a good start to my holidays so far i should say. Been filling it up with something beneficial so far, mainly by working. Working is beneficial to me in a sense because i can less depend on my parents now and start to support myself bit by bit, and i must say it's working well. Work at marina bay sands from last Monday till Thursday. Was simply awesome. They actually had this 'nomura event' there and boy was i delighted to be a part of it. Nomura is a Japanese company from what i know and they are the main organiser for this event. For that four days, they held meetings with companies from all over the top growing countries in the world here at marina bay sands. Guests who were there are at least a vice-president in their own company and i get to serve them and be a part of this event, cool or what.

The best part is, i can request for a letter of commendation for being a part of those staffs that helped to make this event a successful one. That will sure helped me in some ways in getting a job few years down the road. The experience was terrific. I'm doing a normal part time job and yet the recognition i get is of a different level already. It's simply great. I hope i can get opportunities like this sooner or later because it has been simply awesome.

Anyway, was browsing YouTube to check out for any nice songs that can be put into my mp3(since it hasn't really been updated with new songs) and guess what, i do find one. Well it's actually a Korean song. I don't how i landed into this one but it's lyrics are actually one of a kind and combined with it's nice rhythm, it's actually a nice song. The title is 10 reasons to love you.

those are really 10 good reasons =)

World cup has finally kicked off and i'm glad my dad subscribed it. Despite of it's(crazy) price, i guess it's worth it considering that it's once in 4 years. This is surely a once in a while event and i'm sure every soccer fan will want to catch every single brilliant moment of it.

Well i'm off now, till then take care :)

So i told myself that tomorrow's gonna be the day
And i keep on telling myself that i'm gonna find a way
And i wont be afraid just like yesterday
Wont walk away, never gonna let another chance slip away

An update..at last

2010-06-06T22:14:00.015+08:00

I'm back, from being away from this blog for almost months. Thing is, i had to get myself settled down properly from a lot of things that has been happening to me for the past 2 months. Yes, i was that busy, quite a hectic life a should say. Maybe i should briefly state what's the cause of it.

First and foremost, school. Just by hearing that word makes me go crazy. Ever since school started few months back, it has been the one and almost the only reason why my life has a sudden change to it, to an even faster paced life. It's like taking your current life and you multiply the pace of it by 3, or maybe 5. Obviously i didn't manage to cope well with it but like most people would say, life has to go on. So i did, and it took me almost a month to eventually get use to the current life i'm having. Yeah, maybe it's just me but boy am i glad that i can finally get the hang of it now.

To add on to it, i was already taking up a part time job at Akira to support myself all while. Have to say that i didn't really had a good time in juggling it. Along the way, my friends said that i had to drop my job in order to concentrate better in school but due to some personal reasons, i just can't and had to continue it to carry on supporting myself. So i pushed on and i think i made it, barely.

Due to the hectic work schedule too, i just had to change it before it gets worse to me, beacuse during that time, exam's week was just along the corner. So i changed to another job, and i must say that i kind of like the new one. It allows me to travel to various hotels in Singapore. Along the way, i'm sure to be picking up some valuable experience. Handling different types of guests, some high demanding ones. It gets hard at times but i prefer the challenge rather than just keeping myself trapped in my own world(go guess yourself what's the job). The best place i've been through so far, marina bay sands! Just by seeing the place itself is such a beauty, what more working there.

On a (way)better note, had our WJLA bbq last Friday at East Coast Park. It was one word, great. It has been quite some time since we had everyone present, so i think last Friday was indeed special(and aku jatohhh boyyyy!! lol!). One of the topics that was brought up during our conversations among each other - the need to have a goal in life. I think it's certainly true that we need to plant our own ones in us. For the fact that i'm leaving my teenage years soon in less than a year, it's time i have mine. Thankfully i do and hopefully i can life through it.

My post is getting long and it'll get longer if i down wrap it up here. I'll try to get this blog of mine updated and alive so hopefully you don't think that this blog belongs to the trash. Now that i'm on holiday, i should be more free now? Not really because i think i'll be working instead. But being on a holiday always makes you think that you got a lot of things to fill yourself with, so i'll fit one of the things with 'updating my blog frequently'. Till then, take care :)

jangan dibiarkan perasaan menawar hati

jangan dibiarkan semuanya berlalu pergi

tapi itu semuanya adalah kenangan

yang tinggal cuma hanyalah perasaan

That day to remember

2010-04-07T23:50:00.008+08:00

Ok, this post was suppose to be up like about four days ago but it didn't simply because i got no time to do so. I was being occupied with alot of stuffs lately so yea, that was partially the reason.

Anyway, to start off, i'll like to wish myself a happy 19th birthday. I must say i really really enjoyed myself on my birthday. And why wouldn't i, when i got birthday presents and surprises from family and friends to make the occasion an exciting, touched and obviously a memorable one. It was simply the best day of April so far and i'm sure it will stay on that way.

Since the stroke of midnight on my birthday, i've been receiving birthday wishes from basically different modes of communication nowadays. Facebook, msn, phone calls, smses... those were the few of the modes that i meant. Even to the extend of receiving a sms on the time exactly when i was born 19 years ago, to like make it seemed that it was really a complete 19 years and therefore the most proper timing to wish a happy birthday to me. I must say that i really appreciate all these. Therefore i couldn't thank these people enough.

Yup, Ben & Jerry's. It was the perfect start for a birthday i guess. Obviously it makes it more special when it comes from my own family, my sister to be more exact. The rest were there to make the occasion a more special one. Come to think of it, i have been eating free Ben & Jerry's ever since after O levels for my birthday. It has been 3 years ever since. Still counting on? Yes, of course i would want that.

Well after that, went to meet my school friends for a short meet up since exam results was just out recently. Speaking of that. i'm so proud of my results. Somehow, it gives the occasion a more sweeter memory. Got a few presents from them but the greatest present i got from them was they themselves, for having to turn up for that meet up, as some of us are going to our separate ways in life after this. I'm fortunate to get to know these great people, with different backgrounds and different walks of life. One thing in common, our friendship. Really hope that i can keep in touch with them. Another meet up few months down the road? You bet.

And somehow it seems that i can't even get a sight out of ncc context for even a day. That is because after that, i had a meet up with some of the ncc people. From a heart to heart family gathering, to a sweet, emotional meet up with school friends, i guess to make things balanced, it was just nice that the meet up with the ncc peeps was a fun and enjoyable one. From kite flying to exciting chit chat sessions with each other. Not to mention, fun and laughter here and there. I felt great that my day ended like the way that i wanted it to be. A happy ending.

If only everyday is like my birthday, i will be the happiest guy on earth till i die. I hope with these kind of memorable occasions in my life, i will treasure my every moment for as long as i live. I hereby thank again for whoever that has done a part in making my day an enjoyable one. Seriously, you guys didn't know how appreciative i am as for that day i turn 19.

My birthday has been nothing but a perfect one. Hopefully yours will too someday. With that i'm out.

you got my attention at 'hello'
we had this connection that wouldn't let go
there was something sexy bout your voice
anything you say makes a beautiful noise

mission accomplished?

2010-03-28T23:48:00.002+08:00

Well since my last post, there hasn't been much things happening throughout. Spec course was ok i suppose. And after that there's a little bit of ncc commitments here and there throughout the respective days. So having said that, i think i'm done with ncc side(haha that's a quick one).

I must say that the event that most captured my mind/head/heart/soul, you name it, in this month of march is the one on the 27th. That's like duh. I think it has been one of wjla highlighted events in 2010. Of course, hopefully, there's more to come. Consider that the event on the 27th is pretty much a 'long-planned/awaited occasion', i must say that thankfully, it turned well. So one down, hopefully there's more to come! Hahaha. Hanged out at west coast after that event till late. As usual, had some laughter here and there, not forgetting, sharing sessions too. 27th was indeed the day to remember. So march ended with a bang? I think so too.

So having said that, i hope that april with begin in a bang too. One of reasons i'm saying that is cos i'm turning a year older in less than a week's time. Good or bad? I'm not so sure about that though but one thing's for sure, i'm so looking forward to free ben & jerry's again woohoo. That itself will be great already, right sis? Other than that, i just hope that life will get better after that.

That study session was great. Hopefully we can do it again some other time.

That's it for now. With that. i'm out

i told myself that today was going to be the day
no more excuses cos i knew exactly what to say
was going to make my play but just like yesterday
my mind erased and i let the moment slip away

movies, in coming!

2010-03-10T00:43:00.006+08:00

This few days i have been spending my time watching movies on the computer. Either those online ones, borrowed from friends or rented from shops. It's really great i tell you. Especially those nights where i really got nothing to do when i sit in front of my computer, and since it's my holidays, i guess it's good if i have a little bit of fun in spending it.

I'm going to watch all different kinds of movies. Being it about adventure, action packed, love, horror, mystery, life learning- all those are going to be covered hopefully before i start school. But i think when it comes to watching horror movies, i can't really watch it like around late night-early morning. Or else it will give me the creeps when i'm going to bed after that.

Plus for the fact that i will be the only one in the house still up after 1am(except for my sister if she's still watching the TV of course), i will really really consider watching a horror movie during late nights, though i know the sensation/feeling will be better. Maybe when i watch one, it won't be that late, say 11? Anyway, wish me luck for my movie marathon then hahaha.

Check this yet another dance video i posted up on my blog.

Cool moves. Superb talent. Great video. Enjoy.

I should end here now. Well back to the movies! Till then, take care.

(27th march? Ok go! HAHAHA)

why must we change the pace
hearts were never meant to race
i always felt the need for space
but now i can't even reach your face

Friends forever

2010-03-02T02:56:00.004+08:00

No matter how young or old you are, the term friends forever is something that makes you smile. It might make you think about your first best friend, way back when you were 4 years old. Or a good friend that you have today that you hope will always be there for you. Friends forever means just that, a friend until the end of time. This is a gift that is very rare indeed, and should be cherished.

You will have many friendships in your life time and some friendships will grow and change over time. Sometimes you have a great circle of friends with whom you enjoy every single moment. There might be a period of time - from weeks to months to years - in which you are completely inseparable. You share all of your secrets, tell you friend you'll be there for them(and you really did).

But however, not all friendships don't have a great fairytale ending. Some may stopped half way, with you hoping that it would never happened, but it did nevertheless. You tried your very best to safe the friendship but unfortunately, you didn't tried hard enough. You didn't do anything to wreck it though you do know that you could have done more to safe it. To your most regret, the long-build/cherished/trusted friendship is now gone. Every minute, every moment, every second, you just hope that you could turn things back around.

Hopefully, friends that were at one time your best friends will still be friends in times to come, even if you don't talk to them every day, every week or even every month. No matter what type of friends you have in your life, cherish the moments when they are truly your best friends. Cos whether will they stay that way or grow apart bit by bit, they'll always be there in your heart and will always be a cherished memory.

friends that stay
friends that go
and how will it sway?
even i do not know

Pre and post CNY happenings

2010-02-18T01:23:00.004+08:00

Events happening lately have been very fun and memorable i think. Westcoast park overdrive with wjla was awesome. A night well spent i guess with one of my closest friends i have. Celebrated CNY like some other usual/boring day perhaps. Not doing anything much. Except for the part that i went out with a certain people. ;) Of course after that there was the war memorial ceremony which i went for on the 15th February. It was really fun in my point of view. The ceremony itself was not that long but the post ceremony was indeed great for me. Facebook will tell you why. And not forgetting that i actually got onto the national tv in no.1. It was great really, that war memorial ceremony was indeed memorable.

To top it up, went for kite flying with wjla the day after. Ok, that was superb. From not knowing much on how to fly a kite, to flying a kite to perfection! Well almost, if not for the string which snapped off, twice! But it was fun really. That sums up my pre and post CNY happenings, which i thought luckily i did spend it wisely (to a certain extend). If not, i will go to my mirror and say, 'kesian sama dia! kesian!!!' (hahaha it's an inside joke actually, which cracks my stomach like hell)

Some videos to kill those late night boredom.

I wanted to blog about more stuffs actually in this post(there's really more to blog about). But suddenly i feel bored and i don't feel like blogging anymore. So i think i'm going to end my post here. With that i'm out.

Pertemuan kita di suatu hari
Menitikkan ukhuwah yang sejati
Bersyukur ku ke hadrat ilahi
Di atas jalinan yang suci

back

2010-02-05T16:43:00.005+08:00

I'm just back from another ncc camp yesterday and for some reason, i felt that 2 days almost felt like 2 weeks. That usually happens when i stayed in inside camp. I somehow got lost in time. The camp itself was ok/not bad/good. Worked with a new bunch of great people and at the same time, learned some new stuffs here and there. Can say that i enjoyed myself too.

Anyway, check out this video. (the last part is a little bit crappy though, just check out the song)

It's really amazing to have this kind of talent. I really like their acoustic versions. You guys should check out their other videos too on youtube. Some of them are really worth the time watching.

I got nothing much to update for now. I'm just updating to show that my blog is still alive and will update it now and then. Till then, stay tuned. With that, i'm out. (:

Cos i will doze off safe and soundly
But i will miss your arms around me
I would send a postcard to you dear
Cos i really wish that you were here

dropping by for a short while

2010-01-29T01:10:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to blog these days so it's no surprise that i only post once in a while. Like i said in my previous post, January should past in a breeze. And it did, as expected. A really simple example that shows that time past damn/very/freaking fast. I felt like i just celebrated new year days ago(cos i can still remember what i did for both new year and new year's eve). I felt like one month passes me by like one week(yea, i do felt that way). But overall i felt that time flies simply, fast. I guess is how i'm living my life right now that made me think this way. Well different people have different views obviously. You just happened to have read mine.

This following videos showed me that sometimes, acoustic songs can sound so much better than their original ones.

There's alot more to this actually. If i were to post everything, it would have taken up 123456789 pages more. Hahaha, ok obviously i'm kidding.

My friend introduced me to k-pop songs few days back and expects me to listen to it and fall in love with it. Like what the hell?! My friend, you got to be kidding me, hahaha. ;)

Nothing much to add on to this so with that, i'm out. :)

If you get the message, good. If not, too bad.

what good is a memory
without you there with me
and what good is a photograph
if you're not on the other half

where actions has its limits

2010-01-07T00:59:00.003+08:00

The title of today's post really has a strong meaning within it. Sometimes it's not just about doing 'it' as long as it doesn't reach the limit, sometimes it's best you just don't even do it at all. I don't know why i started my post today in this manner but no matter.

Anyway today was a long day, for me at least. And i think it's because of not having enough sleep lately/ having your sleeping time deteriorating, that has caused me to feel the sudden tiredness in my body throughout the day. But somehow, when you got home and started to switch on the computer, that's it. Your tired looking eyes, your shagginess that you complained to have in your body can suddenly turn the other way round within a few minutes. And by the time those msn and facebook accounts have been logged in, i can tell you you can even sit in front of the computer the whole night acting that you are fresh as if you are just starting the day. Of course that only happens to certain(maybe most) people. I think we ought to be impressed how IT can really make wonders to one self, but of course it will leave you dead the next day with not much sleep and all that haha.

Singapore lost to Iran. So much for wanting to qualify for 2010 world cup. Yea, saying is easier than getting it done of course. Never mind, i'll still have faith in them(i hope). *Pride of our nation*(that is so army style), that's one of the ways to get people motivated i guess.

Let me see, January should past in a breeze for me i suppose. Not much events happening throughout the month. I guess and i hope that it will be a great month for me. I don't see why not because the first few days of January to me was actually not bad. I just hope it gets better. As much as you know that you will always face some downfalls in a certain point of time of the year, you just hope that it wont happen in the beginning part of the year where all your self-strength and optimism rate is still up there. It wouldn't really be a nice ride in your life for sure.

I suddenly got hooked up in this classic comedy series, mind your language. I know it's an old show but who cares. It's always good to bring back those (way)good old times and honestly speaking, the jokes are not really that 'old', if you know what i mean. You can still laugh along with it, sometimes even laugh your ass out with it, i'm not kidding. Try it and you'll love it.

It's getting uncomfortable, if you hadn't notice it yet.

I'm off for now, till then take care.

tak ada manusia
yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali
segala ape yang terjadi

And there goes another year

2010-01-03T02:48:00.003+08:00

Wow, it's been (really quite) some time since i last post a single thing here. Well now that i'm back, i'll just try to make this blog active again so as to clear all those thick dusts collected all this while. Frankly speaking, i almost lost my interest in blogging. Thank god that didn't happen. I'm really glad to finally post something up here. Hopefully, it will goes on after this.

2009 left me in a flash i must say. It seems like only a few months ago that i celebrated the arrival of 2009 and here i am, leaving it. Well practically, everyone says that too, but i guess it's the nature of life that every year you will get something special or meaningful in it or even vice versa (that's for sure too). If you'd ask me how 2009 has been for me, i would say i have faced more downs rather than ups throughout that year. Nevertheless, it left me with alot of good memories that i will cherish all my life. Why? Cos the good memories that happen throughout the year, even though it's not that much, it is so meaningful to me that it will take me for life to eventually forget about it(yea, that's when i'm dead by then). Memories like my birthday, gatherings with my close friends, those are the few good ones that i had during 2009.

But as usual, there will never be a year that will leave us with only happiness. As for me, the disappointments that happened throughout 2009 certainly gave me a learning point. And mainly, it is to improve myself for the better. There are a few of course that happened in the midst of 2009, i wouldn't really want to specify it in further detail cos it will eventually make me think back of those bitter past. But obviously there's one event of disappointment that to me i don't even have to say it out to make me think back about it, but i just don't want to say it out. It will make me think about it more then, haha.

Surprisingly, those good memories of 2009 happened like the ending part the year. I guess to me that is good cos then i will still have fresh memories of it when stepping to 2010. Hmm my resolution for 2010? There should be a couple of them, but my first one would be 'to accomplish my new year's resolutions'. Cos i have to admit that i haven't been accomplishing my new year's resolutions for the past years (and i'm sure i'm not the only one in this world haha). Only then, i can start to focus on my respective new year's resolutions, so that i can eventually fulfill them by the time 2010 ends. So people, wish me luck!

Like everyone else, i hope that 2010 will be better than 2009. And i don't see why it can't be that way cos 2009 eventually made a stronger person. I just hope that it would turn out great, though there will be certain hiccups along the way(it's the nature of life, what you expect). And last but not least, i hope you people will have a great year ahead too :)

(wow, what a long post to kick-off the year hahah)

what a beautiful smile
can i stay for a while
on this beautiful night
we'll make everything right

rewind it please?

2009-11-17T17:39:00.002+08:00

Today could have been a long post. Sadly it didnt.

though with plenty of rehearse
a bad day can still get worse
hoping that tomorrow will be better
just so to take another breather

Maybe it's harder to walk on my own

2009-10-29T00:25:00.002+08:00

Ya i know i haven't been blogging for ages already. I guess it's either i'm busy, pretending to be busy or maybe i just don't have the mood to blog. I think having a blog is like keeping a pet. You have to feed it, take care of it for it to live. If not it will die, just like how a blog can go dead if the person doesn't update it frequently or even maybe update it once in a blue moon.

Facebook can be the next addictive thing after msn, i've been beginning to realise that. And when your life is pretty much updated at facebook(like the tagging of photos and stuffs), it's one of the reasons too why people sometimes don't update their blog, i guess. Facebook is so addictive, you can even just browse through your own home page for half an hour without doing anything else on facebook, incredible. But of course, facebook isn't the only thing that keeps my world go round. I have school and other commitments too. Previously i'll usually update my blog if i have the time to do so. Now i think i'll update my blog only if i have the mood to do so.

this.is.cool.

Life for me for the next few months is the most crucial for me throughout the year of 2009. It will be playing a major part to whether will i be leaving 2009 with satisfaction or otherwise. I'm wishing all the best to myself. With that, i'm out.

I can fix up your broken heart

I can give you a brand new start

I can give you all that you want

If you'd show me that i'm the one

Taking that time to think about it

2009-10-10T02:14:00.007+08:00

The biggest sacrifice one can ever make

When deep injury is done to us, we never recover until we forgive.

Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.

Enjoy the videos. (:

Senyuman yang tersirat di bibirmu

Menjadi ingatan sepanjang waktu

Tanda kemesraan bersimpul padu

Yang bila ku kenangkan di saat dulu

Another long awaited month

2009-09-20T23:47:00.004+08:00

So Ramadan has finally left us, hoping that we will still be able to meet up with the next one when next year comes. Certainly the departure of Ramadan has left us with mixed emotions, mostly sad. 'If only we know the greatness of Ramadan, we would want every single day of our lives to be in the month of Ramadan', i'm sure this phrase is well known to most of our muslim friends. Sadly, we can't have every single day of our lives to be in the month of Ramadan, so what we can do is to only hope that we will still be able to meet up with the next Ramadan.

On a brighter side, Hari Raya has just started! And i'm sure it's another long awaited month for us. It can be for various reasons for various group of people upon why is it a long awaited month but boy am i glad to still be able to meet it again. They say the celebration of Hari Raya is much more felt if you had gone through Ramadan with much perseverance and endurance. I think that's true in a way. And i guess in theory the whole purpose of celebrating this occasion is to celebrate our success of being able to go through Ramadan, and obviously to seek forgiveness to those whom you had done wrong to. And to some group of people, (mainly those more to the young in the heart) this is the 'right time' to improve on their 'economic crisis', if you know what i mean, hahaha (i'm sure majority would understand).

Upin and Ipin Hari Raya special, something just to keep the atmosphere of this occasion there, now that it is still the first day of Hari Raya. Don't worry, this time it has subtitles, haha.

And since i'm already talking about Hari Raya, i would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone a blessed Hari Raya. Of course if i had done any wrongdoings to anyone of you out there(obviously there is, i'm not perfect you know), i hope you can forgive me. What do you expect, i'm just an ordinary human being who makes mistakes here and there with or without noticing it. So once again, i seek forgiveness from all of you out there. Enjoy this occasion while we still can.

Oh ya, to my muslim friends who will be visiting their relatives and all, i'm sure you all will be doing some eating here and there so take care! Jangan 'PJD'(perut jalan dulu) sudah, hahaha. Or if i were to translate it, 'SGF'(stomach go first)? Haha.

Hari Raya outing? Yea, maybe soon. Till then take care. Lastly, Selamat Hari Raya! :D

Now i know that no one else would do
Out of all that i knew
Nothing is true
Until i met you

Hanging on, but barely? I don't think so

2009-09-04T00:12:00.007+08:00

Two weeks of Ramadan have past(or at least almost 2 weeks) and i got to admit that it was very fast. It's like i hardly felt the tiredness of fasting on some periods of this 2 weeks. But i got to admit that the atmosphere was there, the atmosphere that you only get during this month. My first night of Ramadan explains everything about my previous sentence. And i got to admit too that Ramadan changed me, in many ways. I don't think its a miracle that you only get during this month. It's been there all along but only we human beings don't realise it, until Ramadan comes.

How's my fasting month? It's been simply superb. I've enjoyed every single moment of it. I don't see why not. Broke fast with my secondary school clans for the first time since we departed from our secondary school lives 2 years ago. After having a good catching up session with everyone and seeing how they've changed in many ways from what i saw 2 years ago, the best feeling that i had was the fact that how we are still united in a way, though we really went out own different paths after O's. Paths that don't really allows us to see everyone's faces as frequent as we did back then. It's a great yet emotional feeling really. Now to think of it, i felt so bad for missing last years' iftar with them. Never mind, i'm back though.

I'm finally making my way back to ncc camps and courses after some few months of missing in action. A comeback eh i supposed? It's just that i've only working behind the scenes all this while for ncc. Well that is going to change though for the next few days when i book in for yet another ncc course. Toughest challenge i'm going to face while attending the course? Probably the fact that i will be fasting. But who knows i'll face a greater challenge? We'll see how, but in the mean let's just hope for the best.

Two weeks of fasting have passed. Which also means that it's two more weeks to raya! Haha...

Have a great life people. With that i'm out :)

Cause you're like a movie star
And I lose track of where we are
I know it sounds so cliche
But you take my breath away

And here it comes again

2009-08-22T01:10:00.008+08:00

And here it comes again, the month of Ramadan. Been waiting for it since last year actually, the fact that will i be able to see this month again, and thank god i did. I wonder what Ramadan would bring me this year and how will it help me to live a better life. I hope it will turn out to be great, the best Ramadan i ever had in my 18 years of living. But then again, it's me who will have to try to make the best out of it. Everyone wants to change for the better in this month. I want too. And hopefully after i change, i will bring that 'change' forward to the next month and so on, not just to do the good deeds in Ramadan and leave everything behind after that. Come to think of it, it's pointless in a way.

And the fact that the people around me, my loved ones more importantly, are also going through the thick and thin of the fasting month with me, makes it more memorable and special for me. I just hope that Ramadan this year will be a great one for me.

Something that was once a very tuned show by a certain group of people, hahaha. I guess the occasion is just nice to post this up.

Guess there's nothing left for me to say for now. Good luck to those who will be fasting throughout this month. Hope you guys will have the strength and will power to overcome every single hurdle that will be faced every single moment while enduring the hunger, thirst and god knows what else. I'm sure it will pay off.

With that, i welcome this long awaited month (:

Mengapakah dunia yang dikejari
Sedangkan ia kan ditinggalkan pergi
Apalah gunanya harta di sisi
Ketika jasad terkubur terkaku mati

Hearing voices coming through these paper walls

2009-08-15T23:39:00.006+08:00

Hey. These are some of the videos i've been wanting to post the last round time but couldn't cos the embedding was disabled. This are some of the few cool ones i saw when watching Britain's got talent, specifically this group, flawless. Their moves are simply flawless i tell you.

EPL finally kicks off man. Like wooohooo! I can finally find something else to do during late weekend nights other than going out with my friends or studying at home during late hours, haha.

Suddenly i'm stuck to nickelback songs, and i don't know why. It's a natural thing i guess, haha. Just look at my blog songs and you'll know i'm stuck with that.

And not to mention, fasting month commences in less than a week now. Been looking forward for that since 1st August. I want to make the fasting month this time round a great one for me. Like obviously right. Who wouldn't?

This is very nice video. The video itself might be kind of dull and the singer might not have the greatest voice in singing this, but its lyrics are very meaningful. Sorry this one is in malay. An inspiring video i would say, just by hearing the lyrics. Enjoy :)

With that i'm out

Menarilah dan terus tertawa

Walau dunia tak seindah surga

Bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa

Cinta kita di dunia....Selamanya

And i can't believe that i stayed till today

2009-07-28T01:14:00.004+08:00

It's amazing to see how one can strive and pull through all the downfalls one had experienced before, and still emerged victorious. It's a tough task, certainly, but a pat on the back i guess should be given to such people if they manage to do that. Throughout my life, i've seen lots of my friends who did that. And frankly speaking, i'm proud of them. Not only proud of them for the courage that they have put up but proud, to be friend of theirs. It certainly give me an insight, a sense of realisation i would say. That if you think you have fallen down and you can't get back up on track, well sometimes you just have to. It's a tough thing to do obviously, but it's also a point where one can realise that one is actually capable of doing something better. It only a matter of time that you can realise what are the true strengths that you actually have inside you.

And i guess upon seeing the tough battles that some of my friends have put up in trying to change themselves, it gave me the urge to fight my own battle too. And i'm happy to have made it through this far. With this, i hope that i can go further. Thanks to those who had given me the courage all this while, i really owe you guys big time.

Night class at the mosque just now also gave me another eye-opener lesson. The classes have always gave me new learning points week by week. It's one of the reasons why i will never get bored of it.

And i thank god everyday for giving me something that i've been searching for all this while :)

Cos if you don't dream big, then what's the use of dreaming
And if you don't have faith, there's nothing worth believing
It takes one hope to make the starts worth reaching for
So close your eyes and look inside, to reach out for something more

And I won't be surprised if it's a dream

2009-07-16T00:26:00.004+08:00

Hey there people. Haven't been blogging for quite some time. Was busy for the past few weeks and plus i guess there isn't really anything interesting happening in this little piece of life of mine, so that's why. Well i guess time flies reaaallly fast for me man. After next week, it will be approximately one more month to the fasting month. Now that is quick. It seems like only yesterday i said something like, 'wah...8 more months till fasting month'. And here it is coming close to us. Gosh, i just can't explain some of the things that has been going on to me lately. I guess it just happened too fast until i can't even sit down for a while and catch a glimpse of the greatness of it's moment. Hard to explain but i guess to minimise the complication here, i better not say much.

If things go as per normal, i guess i might be going overseas next month. But things are still on pending, so till then, i'll have to wait for the result.

Some videos to share...

I just love the way he put it into acoustic version. It is really pleasing to the ears to listen.

Alright, off to bed then, if i don't want to be late for school tomorrow, haha. Chows!

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here

Allah gave me another chance...

2009-07-05T23:29:00.005+08:00

I got knocked down by a car yesterday. Not that serious. If it was i wouldn't be updating my blog now cos i will be at the hospital already. It happened at the PIE exit area, at the zebra crossing. My left toe bleed. Not that much but not that little too and i almost fractured my left arm. I would have fractured it if it was a greater impact. Worst part is that the reckless driver still wanted to argue with me, saying that i'm at fault and since i was cycling, he said that zebra crossing is meant for pedestrians and not for cyclist. What kind of bullshit reason is that man! Then where do you expect me to cycle? Behind your car? I felt sorry for breaking his side mirror initially but after getting that kind of reaction from him, i felt great for breaking it. His wife(i assumed) was beside him. Luckily she was nice and said whether i was fine or not and whether i needed treatment. I just said i was fine cos i wanted to leave that scene as soon as possible.

I still told the driver that he was in the wrong and that he should slowed down. Obviously he didn't seemed like someone who wants to accept that fact. We argued and exchanged some harsh words in the process. And he said that he can't claimed insurance for his broken side mirror for that incident. 'Do i looked like i care?', that was what went through my mind at that moment. Serve him right for driving recklessly. I knew i will still be in the right. I still got my final theory knowledge fresh on my brain. He was just lucky i didn't bring him down with my points.

But apart from that, i was grateful to be just fine. Grateful to Allah for still giving me a chance to leave that scene without even have the need to go to the hospital. I was having a total of mixed feelings on my way home. All i was thinking was that what would happen to me if i had received a greater impact. I did my 'sujud syukur' when i got home. Indeed i was grateful and fortunate(ape tk, ibadah kalau dah cukup tkpe, ni belum). When i told my parents this(i just got the feeling that i can't hide it from them) my mum banned me from cycling...for now, haha. Furthermore i don't feel like cycling for now so i guess its ok.

But what an incident it had been...

Alright then, with that, i'm out!

Setiap kali ku bersujud menghadapMu
Akan ku masukkan doa istimewaku itu
Dengan hati yang tenang dan mengharapkan keredhaanMu
Dan dengan harapan Kau akan memakbulkan pohonan ku itu

Insyaallah..amin

What a blast!

2009-07-02T22:25:00.007+08:00

Yesterday was a blast man, seriously. Had our first major class outing i think, cos before this we only go out with cliques of our own. But not yesterday, whereby we all did it together. Actually i was supposed to meet up the wjla too yesterday, but i already made plans with my classmates so, sorry wjla bros. I guess there are times where you have to give and take, haha.

So after school, went to study with the rest at the national library . Initial plan was to study of course. Turned out we only covered a few topics cos most of us were having post-exam moods, haha. Our exams are over by the way, but projects are piling up, so ya. So study(or should i say not that much of it) until nearing evening and then went to town for dinner. The idea just came out in a split second and surprisingly, we all agreed to it, haha. I went of for prayers first at Al-Falah and joined them after that. And guess where do we go after that. We actually went to the Night Safari man, haha! Some of you may think it's aimless, but we really had fun. All of us got 50% off the actual price cos our dear friend, Dini, works there. This was the climax of the whole outing thingy for me. Plus free tram rides, i or should i say, we couldn't be more elated. And not forgetting we watched this very cool animal show, 'creatures of the night', that was another highlight too.

And i never knew that the tram ride would be a very very interesting one. There's one animal called the babirusa, which means pig dear if it is directly translated, which made us laugh like hell just by seeing the name itself, haha(i'm still laughing while typing this). I never knew it would be a very eye opening experience for me. The last time i went is when i was 5 years old and obviously i can't remember i single thing to what happened back then. Maybe i should go again, maybe with my family of my other friends(mcm best sey! haha).

So we went to woodlands after that. Had a chat at McDonald's before going our own separate ways back to home. I really had a great time with you guys man. Maybe we should do another outing soon, cos one is obviously not enough. Maybe a movie outing? I heard someone is going to turn 19 soon right. Maybe an outing will be a good time to give a birthday 'treat', haha. On my home, i saw something really interesting while in the bus. I shouldn't say it here, haha.

Something which i've been wanting to post all along but keep forgetting it. Well, i'm not now.

Till we meet again (:

The times we share
With much joy and care
And i want this moment to stay
Cos i like it that way

today's hardwork is tomorrow's success

2009-07-01T00:25:00.003+08:00

A good friend of mine showed me this video. I think it's kinda cool, and funny too, haha.

Why the short post today? Cos i got nothing much to say, other than posting that video above, haha. Life is getting better for me now and i'm grateful for that, alhamdullilah. There's a saying that life's all about taking chances. And it's about time that people will start to live up to that phrase to realise one's potential in life. And speaking if it i just come up with my own motto in life, 'today's hardwork is tomorrow's success'. I just hope that i can live with it, haha.

Something tells me that i'm finally on the right track....

Ditelan kerakusan
Kenyataan kehidupan
Dipukul kegagahan
Kepahitannya harapan

Transformed!

2009-06-27T23:17:00.005+08:00

Haha..like finally man, i have watched the movie of the moment, transformers. Watched it with a few of the ncc people. Have to admit that the movie was a blast, although i don't really get to watched on its opening day(nvm, few days after its opening day, still ok). Watched it at bugis junction on the 1145hrs show. I must say that it was worth the money, considering it being 2 hours plus....okkkk lahhh, haha.

So after that, we went to watched one minute of fame at Millenia Walk cos apparently someone wanted to, haha. Met few of the NDP trainers and those participated in the AYG once we were at Marina. And of course as usual, along the way we did the common stuffs that we usually did whenever we are together. I don't think i should elaborate on that more. Had some funny moments before heading home(i think thr's too much until i can't rmbr every of it, haha). We headed home the loooong way, if you know what i mean. Overall i think it was a good day, and obviously the movie played a major part in making my day a good one, like duhh...haha.

Guess there's nothing more to update then. One step closer? I'm sure it is. The more i think of it, the more i'm hoping it would come. But hope itself is not going to bring me anywhere. Pray for it and of course, effort, which obviously play a vital role in this situation. Only then, i will start to realise the almost impossible being the absolutely possible. I will persevere.

But until you know the truth, you'll be thinking nonsense for now....

Till then take care.

When i met you i felt like i could be myself
You showed me friendship like nobody else
Now i know that i have to ask for nothing
Because with you it seems like it's always something

from dull to bright

2009-06-22T00:16:00.003+08:00

It was supposed to an ordinary Sunday where i will spend my time with my family. But it turned out to be different. Very different. Went out with my 'gerek' bros. Had a hell of a great time man. First lunch(a late one actually), then pool, then bowling, then dinner and finally hang out for a while before going our separate ways back to home. Oh ya, and we did some serious picture taking along the day. Photos will be on facebook so to the bros, you guys can get them there if you want to.

I think we should do this kind of often man. In a way, it strengthens our bond more and more. Then again, that is if we happen to have plenty of $$$ in our pocket. If not, then just sit at home and suck thumb i guess (tt's so warrant low, haha). Luckily my other family members happened to have other plans on their own. Which was why i was able to go out with the rest. And it turned out great.

Well tomorrow's Monday again. Weekends flew too fast man. Weekends should be at least three days. That way, people can have more time to rest. Hahaha, like that's going to happen. Alright then, till we meet again, i'm off!

I'm sitting here all by myself just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something, anything, just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind

those were the times

2009-06-20T01:51:00.005+08:00

Reminiscing those moments....

I still remember those times where i never fail to watch this few videos every time i'm using the computer. I just kept laughing at their funny scenes over and over again without getting sick and tired of it. Back then, me and my wjla brothers use to memorise all of their lines until we can even act it out and have a good laugh over it after that. Those were the memories i would say, funny ones in our lives. Now when i watched this videos again, the laughter i use to have is not as much as those which i had back then. Guess the jokes have already turned dull i supposed. Nevertheless, like i said, it'll still be kept as memories. Have fun watching then. By the way, one of the videos above is in malay, so for my non-malay friends, i'm sorry. The other one is in english though and is still as funny too.

Alright, those were videos of memories, but the ones below here...is just videos of addiction. I seriously can't stop the urge from posting this few ones man.

Jabbawockeez = nice:)

I guess today my blog just vomited some videos eh, hahaha. Oh well, look at time man(and what a time to update my blog, haha), i got to go get some sleep already. Have not been getting enough sleep lately. Kept burning and burning my midnight oil...arghh. Ok then, enough said. With that, i'm out of here.

Wajah yang sering terbayang di mataku

Sehingga terbawa di dalam mimpiku

Namun harapan yang selamanya dibawa

Hancur berkecai musnah akhirnya

slipped by...another chance?

2009-06-17T02:00:00.004+08:00

(Will my last of this be enough to face Him?)

Every time we breath, we are trying to make the best out of it. Trying to take up every single opportunity that lies within us to make full use of it. We try and try and try. But somehow we just got to try harder. Perfection is never there. Nevertheless the road to perfection still exist. It's just that somewhere before the finishing line, we somehow have this huge hurdle in front of us that is impossible to overcome. That's when the phrase 'no one's perfect' comes to life. We want to make our life meaningful to the very best. Every step that we take, we want it to be a step towards success. Every actions that we take, we hope that it's an action we'll never regret. Every word that we speak, we want it to be as meaningful as ever to our friends and loved ones to hear. But obviously, saying is easier than getting it done. Tell me my friends, have we taken that step that is not towards success but failure? Have we taken that actions that we'll always regret? Have we said or did something hurtful to our friends or loved ones that we thought we should never have done it?

Life is so long yet so short. We might never know when are we destined to leave this little wonders of earth. Two words, if only. If only we knew, we wont ask to many other questions. So while we are here, we wouldn't want to regret living our life. Cos each of us have goals. To achieve it and to make our life more memorable. That's pretty obvious. And some of our chances to achieve that particular goal comes only once. Once it slipped by, there might be no more opportunity for us to make it come back again. This chance can be anything in life. So...do we still have that chance? Only we know best.

Remember, the further we are from our date of birth, the nearer we are to our date of death. And by saying this it doesn't mean that those older generation in this world is going to leave first and then the younger ones. Cos the fact is, we don't know how long one can live. That's how incredible but complicated this fact can be. And remember...chances. Take it? Or leave it hoping that it will come back again? Think about it.

We only have one life and clearly everyone knows that
Yet we live as if we have thousands of it under our hat
My friends, i'm here to say that no one's perfect
So come on, let us take some time so that we can reflect

Like finally!

2009-06-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

Well well well, if it isn't the weekends again. Frankly speaking, i am always looking forward to all weekends. Not that i want to let every single day during the weekdays pass me by just like that without leaving me anything to take home as learning points of life. It's just that to me the weekend is the time when one can finally take a break(in some way) from a hectic 5 day marathon in pursuing goals in life. Hmm...there wasn't really anything interesting happening during the weekdays....except for this one incident which i found very interesting indeed. It was last Friday to be more precise when i was doing my Friday prayers. I actually made a new friend....in a mosque....an Eurasian furthermore.

I was seating at the prayers hall when this guy came up and stood beside me. After several moments, he sat down and shook hands with me, you know those normal hand shakes as a form of greeting when one meets another. Then he said, 'I just joined Islam. This is only my second time doing the Friday prayers'. Upon hearing that, it surely had taken me a back for a few minutes. Nevertheless, i still managed to get the conversation going on for quite some time. His name is Muhammad Zakri(i think his english name used to be Zack). *Fast forward the story* On my way home, i felt fortunate to meet such person. I didn't know why, i just did. I'm surely looking forward to meet him again next week at the mosque. Hopefully i can guide him in some way. Not to say i'm someone who has great knowledge in the religion, but to a certain level, hopefully i could.

Other than that, had a whooping 7 course dinner with my sister at some hotel at town area today. It was my sister's friend's wedding, and i got invited too cause her friend's sister happens to be my primary school friend, so yeah it was really great. It's not as if you could have 7 course dinners everyday right...haha.

Alright guys, i guess that should be it. Getting ready, cos it's about time...haha. Soon it'll be.

With that i take my bow(:

Pada awan biru ku melakar kata-kata
Pada langit cerah ku panah semua cerita
Dengarlah mentari suara hatiku menyanyi
Bertebangan jiwaku merentasi pelangi

Cos you got me over my head

2009-06-08T23:28:00.003+08:00

(My current addicts - The Fray!)

Just began to love their songs out of now where, haha. Their songs are kind of meaningful to me. For me at least.

Haha ok, back to studying and assignments then(darn it, as usual...). Oh well, what to do right. Tests after tests coming up. Never mind, one word...persevere. I got to tell myself i can do it. Then again, there will be this other stubborn half of myself that will always tell me just let go of all this and just slack around...(stupid other half, nothing better to do than making my life more miserable).

Pray hard. Work hard. Hopefully i can make it. Insyaallah.

Got to go for now. Till then, take care!

I'm too shy to ask I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I got to choose
Oh God, i need your guidance to show me the way
To ease up my mind that is clearly in dismay

I'll find my way

2009-06-07T22:16:00.011+08:00

Just taking this time to share this beautiful song. Enjoy!

That's it for this short and sweet post. Well, back to Monday then. And it goes all over again...

Another week comes

Another week goes

And all this complicated sums

Will come to an end the day she knows

updated..like finally?

2009-05-31T15:23:00.003+08:00

What's up yo? How are you all doing? Hope you guys are doing fine as always. Me? Fine i supposed, or what will i normally say, okkkk lahhh.....haha. Sorry for not been updating for ages until some people will go to the extent of saying that my blog is collecting dust and stuff, yea yea whatever. But come to think of it, i really have not been updating my blog for quite some time already compared to last few months. Just look at the number of posts made during March and April...and compared it to the one made in May! Haha, big difference i know but what the heck. And its not only my blog i've not been updating. Photos from Spencer's ord bbq which i supposed to have uploaded it on the wjla blog ages ago.... i only did it just recently. Even so i only uploaded few of them. Sorry guys, big time. I will upload it on facebook some time. Then again i used the words 'some time'. 'But sometime cat stevens cross the road also what'...haha inside joke.

Hmm..updates of other stuffs for now. I can roughly predict my June forecast. And its going to be like a 'what-kind-of-a-bullshit-forecast-is-that?' forecast. Haha, i think i'm over exaggerating, but then again, i'm true in a way. I don't wanna elaborate more on it. Elaborating further on it makes me thinking of it over and over again which is what i'm trying to avoid on for now. Never mind, i'm sure it will pay off someday, those efforts being put in all this while. Other than that, been exceptionally grateful for being able to attend those night classes at the mosque to give me those ray of lights to improve myself. Sometimes i'm amazed, amidst from my busy days now, i'm still able to make time to visit the mosque now and then, being it for classes of just for normal prayers, in fact more frequently now. Well it just shows that, things change. And if you put in the effort to make things happen for the good and not for the bad, God will always be there to help you along with it. Of course in my position as a Muslim, i have to do my five prayers a day and all those stuffs that are to be done as a Muslim. Only then will God show me the way. Like i said, if i don't seek guidance from the Almighty, then who else?

Speaking of going to mosque for classes and all, my Sunday's religious class have been extra special for me lately, haha *winks*. Other than that, i seriously have to start to save up man. Hopefully i will be able to get one of the greatest dreams of my life before the end of this year. Must pray hard and of course work for it.

I think i should wrap it up here. To end up, if you think that you are always facing difficulties and it is making you go down, it actually doesn't, cos like how labor work strengthen the body, difficulties strengthen the mind. So press on through it, surely you'll make it :).

With that i take my bow.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

trying to find it back

2009-05-13T21:52:00.004+08:00

I'm back. Only for a short while i guess. Have not been blogging since the month of May came. I guess the answer is pretty obvious. Been busy with life lately. I still got my assignments to finish up by tonight but what the heck, i miss blogging(haha, for real?). Life has been good for me, at least for now. But i got the feeling that i am actually leaving something behind me, amidst from getting on with my life. I don't know what, its just that i'm pretty sure i had left something behind. I need guidance man, from the Almighty. Only He can show me what's the 'thing' that i had left.

After undergoing the night class at the mosque last monday night, i realised that i am nowhere near the gates of heaven. Sometimes the more it is for you to try and change yourself for the better, the harder it gets. Guess this is the test to see whether we really really want to improve on our own self...or not. I'll try. No wait, i must. But like i said, guidance from Him is all that i need for now. For he is the one who gave me this test, and if i don't quite know how to 'do' the test, then to Him back will i seek the guidance from.

Its ok guys. I'm not being emo or something ok. That word hasn't been existing in the dictionary of me for since i don't know when. I'm not being emo. I'm just saying out what it really feels inside me.Its just that it happens to be in this way for this particular point of time. Its hard to explain but its really different from being emo, so try to get it ok..haha.

Well, back to my assignments then. I'll try to find time soon to blog again some other time. Till we meet another day, take care everyone (=

Aku persembahkan hidupku untukmu
Telah kurelakan hatiku padamu
Namun kau masih bisu, diam seribu bahasa
Dan hati kecilku bicara

living a new life

2009-05-01T16:31:00.007+08:00

Life has been quite busy for me lately. Especially during the late afternoons till evening part. If i'm not out at the mosque having night classes, i will either be out with my friends, studying or doing it on my own at home. I know studying at home can be boring at times but sometimes its better in a sense. You know with lesser distractions, hopefully there's more concentration,haha. My school work is getting to pile up man. I hardly get any days off nowadays.

I'm totally living a different life now compared to those last few months of last year. Its a major difference, seriously. And if you think that weekends is when i can release my tensions and burdens that i gained during the weekdays, well prepare to think differently now. Its not that it is as busy as my weekdays, its just that some stuffs might pop up last minute, you know family events and stuffs. I come from a big family, especially from my father's side. So i got to expect this kind of things coming. Saturday will be my only free day if i dont happen to have those stuffs mentioned above going on during the weekend. Not forgetting my religious class is on sunday too. And sunday is practically a family day, so yea. And just when i thought that i can finally release my tensions and all, its only going to be for a while cos the week is coming to an end and i will be facing a brand new week again with new challenges of course.

Getting on with a new life makes me realise and look back at the life that i had gone through in the past. I miss my old friends. I miss my ncc friends. I miss ncc. They had played a significant role in making me to who i actually am today, for me at least. Not forgetting, wjla. I certainly miss them too. Those good old days when we never fail to meet up each week, sharing our own life stories with each other. I really miss those good times. Sadly, our lives is not the same as back then. Hopefully we will still keep in touch with each other.

Luckily today's a public holiday. That's why i can finally sit down and post all this. Not forgetting, i found this great video.

Got to know of this dance group from watching britian's got talent. They are seriously good man. But nothing beats jabbawockeez of course..haha.

Going out soon. I got a family event(see...). Ok then that's it for now. With that i take my bow=).

The Girl Who Silenced The World For 6 Minutes

2009-04-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

The incident that strucked me

2009-04-23T23:15:00.011+08:00

For the first time in my life, i had actually experienced such a strong wind going on at my area last night. I don't how to explain. I was using the computer when i started to feel another source of strong wind coming towards me other than the fan which was directly above me. The window was quite a distance from me, so to have already felt that such strong wind from my position, it had already left me wondering. I went to the window, and i think i saw a mini typhoon going on in my carpark area yesterday night. Furthermore, there's had been some construction going on so there were large amounts of sand being scattered around. So when the super duper strong wind came, i actually saw a mini(yea, everything was mini ystd..haha) sandstorm, with the sand which went spinning around in circles for as high as almost 2 storeys high. And since i'm living on the second floor, the sands actually flew inside, well not alot though.

It went on for around few minutes. Some of the stuffs in my house actually got blown away because of this. At one point of time it actually stopped, and i thought that it was all over. The next second the wind was coming even at an even stronger speed and that's when i had to go and close all the windows at my house in case anything happens. I don't know whether to feel a sense of satisfaction because it was the first time i saw that kind of incident. Or to be afraid because it was only a glimpse of what we would actually see during the end of the world. Just pray for our safety my friends. We are all gonna die one day, that's for sure. Let's just hope that we are going to die in the most peaceful way that we can think of. Ok stop talking about deaths already. Till we meet another day, take care everyone!

(Ni Allah baru jentik dunia ni. Entah ini jentik ke tidak. Kalau Allah betul2 tolak dunia ini, apakan daya kite? MasyaAllah......doa dan taubat sahajalah yang kita mampu buat hari demi hari. Taubatlah wahai sahabat-sahabatku, sebelum kita terlambat, insyaallah amin.)

the boy who just turned legal

2009-04-18T16:45:00.009+08:00

Alright guys, the funky dude above here has just turned 18 today,haha. Ok, since during my birthday he posted about me at his blog and 'angkat' me with his marvelous words(angkat sampai aku pn tkleh angkat..haha), i'm gonna try to do the same for his birthday today. Then again, i try-lly ah brotherr.

Ok let see where should i start..hmm. Ok lah, i would say he's one of our wjla brothers whom we look up upon to(kata 2ic pe). But seriously, we can see how our fellow brother here has changed over the last couple of periods, changed for the better. As a friend, i'm thankful to the Almighty to have a friend like that. Let us all hope that one day, Allah will give us the 'hidayah' to change us for the better too like how He has changed our dear apito here. Sometimes we seek advice from him, being it about bikes and cars(obviously right for someone who is an expert in tt area) and sometimes about relationships too(kata org tu dr. love eh..haha).

And i must say that even though he's been busy lately, he never fails to make time to hang out with us. Not forgetting, he's someone who never hesitate to listen to our problem too whenever we are having some. Actually we all listen to each other's problems lah....just trying to 'angkat' him in anyway that i could,haha. Enough said then.

Oh ya, not forgetting, RAFIQ IS GOING TO ENROL TODAY!!(amik kau..amcm ckp?haha). I bet he's gonna chiong all the way like suuuuuuu. And speaking of birth dates and enrolments, i think we should stop teasing the july babies about the you-knw-what thing for now. Especially after the news that apit had told us the other time in the car(haha..solat hajat je ah hari2 mcm gini). To apit, happy 18 once more. Thanks for all the 'doa' that you gave us all this while bro(lagi2 tiga doa yg main peranan tu eh). All the best for your license(nmpk nye kau pass dulu sebelum aku ah ni..haha).

That's is for now. Till then, take care everyone.

(p.s. to rafiq, harap2 kau tk tersinggung dgn text colour aku eh nari..hahaha)

2009-04-14T22:53:00.010+08:00

Sometimes in life, one has to go and search for the best friendship in order to get one. While others may already have the best friendship in front of their own eyes he or she can ever get but eventually not realising it until its too late...

When we talk about a good friendship, we are talking about long lasting ones. Friendship that is worth remembering for until the day we are destined to leave this world(hopefully we still have the chance before that day comes). Sometimes we might even go to any extend to do what it takes just to keep that friendship. But sometimes, our sincerity and effort to gain that might not be realised by those whom we cherish. Instead we are being looked down at, which hurts when we are trying our very best to maintain that particular friendship.

Friendship and relationship, this two factors hardly stands at the same level in one's life. Eventually, one of them has to go a step higher than the other one or the other way round. It is hard to commit towards both, not that it is impossible, its just hard. Eventually, you may have to give up one in order to maintain the other one to be at its very best. If i were to caught up in a situation whereby i have to only choose one out of this two, i would pick friendship. Yes its nice to have a relationship too, but in life, one obviously experience friendship first before experiencing relationship which is at a later point of time in one's life. So the friendship that i may have gain seems irreplaceable cos i cherish that. Yes it is hard to give up one of them when you want to keep both, but sometimes you have to be prepared if these kind of situation happens to pass by your life. It will be hard of course for someone who happens to be in that situation, but at least for now, i'm prepared.

Now i understand why some people don't want to have relationships. Cos they treasure friendships and they don't even want to think of losing it. I respect this kind of people. A good friendship is hard to get, earn and maintain for life. But once you have that in you, it would be one of the greatest gifts god has ever gave you, believe me. Friends are one of the most important ingredients in this recipe of life. Treasure the friends that you have now. You might never know that they might be the one of the greatest friends you ever found in this world.

' Friendship is like standing on a wet cement. The longer you stay, the harder it is to leave, and you can never go without leaving your footprints behind ...'

Phrase of the day...

2009-04-12T01:46:00.007+08:00

'It's sad to wait for something that you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know it's the thing you have ever wanted...'

2009-04-10T21:40:00.003+08:00

Hey there people. Peace be upon you. Just a short post for today but before that, check out this video.

This is what i call love at first sight(haha, quotation awin ke pe.) You people should really take a look at this video. I watched this before few years back during my secondary school days and i was browsing through youtube just now and there, i found it again. It is a touching story really if you happened to watch and pay full attention while watching. This is what you get if a guy will to do what it takes just to see his loved one being happy. Ok, enough said, let the video do the talking. With that, i take my bow. (=

(ambil lah cahaya cinta,
kan ku terangi jalan mu)

2009-04-08T01:44:00.008+08:00

(Praises to the Almighty)

Lately, that position above has been everything to me. Everything that i do, being it from morning all the way till evening, it all comes back to that particular position. I've been blessed by the Almighty from that incident(the one stated on my last post). I believe, the sudden and steep change to my behaviour, things like the doings of my everyday life, reflects on that particular day when i was doing that 'sujud'. I'm starting to feel that reward for being a loyal servant to Him. Nevertheless, i'm not going to stop here. In fact, this is i hope the start of me to really really change myself, to follow the right path as always. They say that the further you are from your date of birth, the nearer you are to your date of death. I cant help but to agree with that sentence 100%. Indeed, that sentence is true. Its only a matter of time that we human beings will start to believe it.

Life in this world is short my friends. If we are not going to make full use of it now, its gonna take some time to start a fresh at a later point of time. Its no use dwelling on the past tragedies and pains. Its no use when we got a future in front of us to look onto. Looking onto the past tragedies and pains is possible in a sense, but only to help us to give us the strength and help us in getting back up on track, not to see it as a downfall of ourselves...it wont go anywhere really if we do that. Its about time i change...

We need time. Time to change ourselves, time to forgive our friends if they had done us wrong. If time is the thing that you need, i'll give you time...

(bersyukurlah pada yg Kuasa,
cinta kita di dunia...selamanya)

2009-04-03T23:22:00.010+08:00

Hey people, you all would probably know what will i be posting about since it is on a special day, well for me at least. Well, turned 18 at last at 1200hrs last night, actually to be specific, i was born at 0324hrs(see, just as my mum was about to sleep soundly, i came out!,haha). But friends of mine have been wishing me starting from 12 midnight. Its ok though, its always nice to have a birthday wish from your friends rather than not having one right? And yea, my 'twin' brother izuwan was one of the few to wish me too at early hours(like i said to him,'perangai....tapi best sey!').

My day went pretty well actually, and i'm grateful for that. My schoolmates threw me a surprise party at dhoby ghaut's plaza singapura this late morning. Actually the plan was to go to a library and study so i was like why all of a sudden meet at plaza singapura? I seriously didn't see it coming, considering the fact that we just knew everyone like one week plus and i seriously got no freaking idea how they got to know my birthday. But it was very nice of them really. Thanks Jes, for planning the whole thing, and of course the rest too for making it a more memorable one for me. And Daniel, no way am i gonna start smoking just because i reach the legal age,haha. So we ended up not studying, cos i need to go for friday prayers by then(its only me who brought the books and stuff, i don't believe it, gua kena beb). Will upload the pictures here soon once i got the pics from Jes, so Jes if you are reading this, you know what to do.

So after friday prayers at Al-Falah mosque(tt's another heavenly place to pray at my muslim friends), i make my way all the way back to jurong and got home, planning to study at home instead. So after one hour plus of study(i dunno whether its enough or not), i was just about to take a short nap when my sis called from work. She wanted to treat me to Ben&Jerry's(actually is not really a treat lah, cos she's working thr alr,haha).I was half-hearted to go at first, to go all the way back to city hall. But i can't disappoint my sis. She's been there for me in my times of need, so being a good brother(haha,sembelih sendiri ke pe), i went to Ben&Jerry's city hall to meet her. The plan was to have it as a family. But the rest are busy, so i guess its quality time with my sis eh. Thanks kak for everything. I know saying thanks will not be enough. I love you so much that i would even risk my life to save you.

Oh before i forgot, after that, went to meet fran,randi and aishah to collect my oreo cheesecake(woo, nice). Thanks fran and randi again for baking it(both of you wanted me to say it so many times right). Met Hakim, WeiHao and Hazwin after that before making my way home to post all this. I must say that my day went pretty well, though i'm still reminiscing some not-so-good moments, and hoping some of the stuffs that i imagined lately would become a reality but it didn't. But i'm absolutely ok with it. Whatever it is, i just want to thank everyone who had made my day today a more memorable one. Indeed it was a day to remember for quite some time.

What happened at the mosque just now was truly unexpected. It wasn't my first time experiencing it, nevertheless what happened just now was indeed an eye opener for me. I wish i could tell it here regarding what had happened, but i just feel like its not the right thing to do. Its an incident that i would remember for life, considering that it happened on a friday and moreover, on my birthday. Whatever it is, i just hope that it is for the good and nothing but the good.

(Sesungguhnya meredhai ujianMu,
adalah salah satu kunci utk membuka pintu syurgaMu)

Shadoik Day!

2009-04-01T21:29:00.006+08:00

Haha, yea 1st of april, so its april fool's day. But i decided to call it 'shadoik' day instead. Cos april fool's day is mainly about shadoik-ing people right? For those who do not know the meaning of 'shadoik', go and ask around and hopefully you will find the answer(ni sume psl blajar dari brother2 gerek ah..haha). So basically, today i wasn't really fooled by my friends(its me for goodness sake). Well except for some people i guess. But the funny thing is, some of my friends' attempt to fool me is like super lame that you laughed at it not because of the quality of the joke but because of the lameness of the joke(you shd know who you r if you r reading this). No offence there haha, but a pat on the back for the good try.

Of course i'm the one who ended up fooling everyone i met today. I shouldn't say out here what are the stuffs that i had fooled my friends with, or else they will get frustrated and spam my tag board or something. Fooling people is a great feeling i guess, of course it is when you are the one fooling others and not be at the receiving end. If you are at the receiving end and you still say its 'best sey', then there's something wrong with yourself. Unless you like being a 'target board' and let others shoot you for nobody's business, then do tell me who you are. Cos i would love to add on to it. So how's your 'shadoik' day, my friends?. Being at the receiving end or is it the other way round?. Whichever it is, just look at the bright side(if you don't happen to have one)which is....i don't know, go think for yourself,haha.

Well, that's about it i guess. Hmm...looking forward to that day? I'm not sure. Maybe yes, maybe not really, maybe no. Whatever it is, only god knows. Nevertheless, its ok. I'm still being me and i'm grateful for whatever that has happen to me so far(praises to the Almighty), so yea. With that, i'm out of here (=

Countdown: 2 days

(berlari lah dan terus tertawa,
walau dunia tak seindah syurga)

The Way I Do...

2009-03-30T00:31:00.005+08:00

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you..the way I do
[x2]

Just thought of sharing this song to my viewers. Why? Don't ask me, cos even i don't know why, haha.

Countdown: 4 days! (its getting nearer hashim....)

2009-03-27T20:56:00.003+08:00

Hey ya what's up people. Don't ask me why am i updating my blog quite regularly lately. I just feel like doing so. Even though my life seemed to be packed with other commitments lately, i just find the need to update my blog(haha weird but yea). It's like becoming a routine for me already lately, haha.
Oh yeah, check out this video,

And don't ask me why am i posting videos lately on my blog, i just feel like doing so. Furthermore some of the videos had made me realise about reality, like getting back up again once you fall down, like the one above. I was touched to be honest after i watched this one. For those of you who had not watch this video, i suggest you spare just 3 minutes to do so. I'm sure it will make you realise in some ways, ways to change yourself for the better which how it had made me realise from watching this video.

Speaking of realising, i'm becoming to realise that living your life is more than just doing your thing and get it over with. Its about how you live your life more importantly. My religious teacher once said,'if the dead people could be granted by the Almighty to live for just one second in this world, they will still take it'. So my dear friends, while we still have the chance to live in this world of wonders, let us all take every single opportunity that is given to us to make full use of it for the benefit of our self. Every morning when i woke up and open my eyes, i'm grateful to the Almighty for giving me another day to live, cos some people don't really get to open their eyes the next morning after they went to sleep(if you know what i mean). Nevertheless its not just about getting to see another day, its about what are you going to do given that you are allowed to see another day. Let us all take a moment to think about it. With that i end my post(:

Countdown: 7 days!(omg just one more week? best sey!!)

2009-03-25T22:39:00.006+08:00

Check out this few jabbawockeez videos man. I find it very interesting and cool of course. Their coordination is just magnificent. If only i could dance like them(haha, ok nvm next...). I know the videos are already on youtube for quite some time already. The cool thing is that, they can make a dance move out of some ordinary music you think its impossible to do so and yet they make it possible. That's the cool part about them and so i want to post it here.

And this one would be my favourite dance from them. No wonder its deleted from the movie step up 2. Cos its better than the final dance and it is just so good. Haha. Enjoy people and be mesmerised...

You know what people, life has been exceptionally good for me these past few days and i'm thankful for that(praises to the almighty). Now march is coming to an end, which means april is coming! More importantly, THE day is coming. Haha, can't wait for it man. Ok actually i'm not really THAT desperate to see that day, its ok, i can wait for a while. But like i said only for a while. Ok then, gtg for now. I'm out of here.

Countdown: 10 days

ApitO's open house!

2009-03-23T18:07:00.010+08:00

Hey Hey Hey...

There's been a lot of things happening to me last week, things that made me realise how grateful am i to still be able to live in this world. Right after spec course which ended last friday, it was our dear ApitO's open house on sunday. Great thing is that, it was full strength again from wjla brothers, so it's always good to see everyone's faces again moreover in a special occasion. Not forgetting, SoolO and MelO had both passed their licence and are officially bike riders for real(haha). And MelO bought his bike right the day after his TP(ok lah, for someone who has $*,000 in his bank account, its not possible i guess,haha no offence bro). So when he rode his bike over to ApitO's place last sunday, most of us were like woahhh. Most of them tried getting on his bike and stuff. I didn't cos i'm not chasing for a bike actually though the urge to get my own license has gone higher after seeing 2 of us getting theirs, haha.

So after some time of hanging out together at ApitO's place, some of us started to make their own way to their own destination and in the end it left with WanO, me and the host himself. So in the end we helped the host to wash the buffet trays at the back of his house and it turned out to be worth it cos we happened to received some 'reward' from ApitO''s mum after that(me and WanO didn't see it coming though). So basically, that's what happened on that fine day.

Sideline a bit...
Now,i'm starting to see my life on a brighter perspective. Before this, sometimes i tend to have the habit of be in self-pity and keep telling myself of the unfortunate situation that i've been. So its only after some time of reflecting towards myself, i've realised that i won't get anywhere actually. So from now on, i hope that i can do things positively, look everything in a positive side and most importantly, live to my fullest,positively. Of course that wouldn't be possible without the guidance from the Almighty, so i know everytime i'm lost, He's the only one who can guide me again to the right path and so to Him will i seek for guidance. I'm sorry if all this while i've kept my friends thinking, why sometimes i'm behaving differently, the not so 'gerek' side of me(haha). In life, you need to seek forgiveness from your friends and loved ones in order to live better cos sometimes you have done something wrong to them without realising it. So here am i doing that, trying to seek forgiveness from you guys. I hope i can change myself for the better from now on. With that i end my post.(=

2009-03-21T22:03:00.006+08:00

Hey i'm back. Let see where should i start,hmm. Ok firstly spec course. I was not feeling very well actually throughout that whole 4 days. Nevertheless, i still had fun and boy did i enjoyed myself. Why? Cos of my fellow west instructors of course. Seriously having them by my side and with their company throughout, you can even make the most dull camp be the best(haha, angkat mau lebih..). With these kind of people whom makes you work better whenever you are in a tough position cos of the bond that you have created, its probably one of the reason why i don't quite really want to leave the organisation for now(ok,i should stop praising them all already for now).

I have learned a lot i would say throughout the days of spec course, and why wouldn't i. Being it from the cadets, my superiors and my fellow west instructors most importantly. These are the small tiny winy stuffs that i have collected and gained just to change myself for the better and i'm thankful for that. I'm glad the course went gradually fine and the hiccups created weren't really that major(this is the part where the oic gets credit for it,haha, ok not really, i shd thank the rest too). So when the last day of spec course came, you will automatically have the feeling you would want the days to be a little bit longer cos of the bond you have created with the rest. But life has to move on and i'm glad to have worked with every single one of you who had made this camp more memorable for me.

So after the whole thing ended, we all had dinner together (well only with a few of the instructors but its ok). Things had been going very well for me...until that call came in the midst of that dinner. Why must that call came, why of all times.. i'm asking myself. After receiving that call, my happy mood went straight down the drain. I tried to cheer myself up but somehow i can't cos the news was so sudden and i just don't know how to react to it. I'm sure, i left the rest clueless as to the sudden change in my attitude. I'm sorry for that. Now that i looked back at it, i felt so unsure of myself. Unsure of what's right to do. And i should stop asking why this why that, cos it's questioning god's destiny and its sinful.

Now all i need to do is forget about the past although in some way i will still keep thinking of it and look on what's ahead of me. I must do that if i know what's good for me. Ok no more being moody and all those shit,haha. I want to thank my west instructors again for giving the course a wonderful one. (i shd end here i think, its getting long). With that i take my bow.(=

the greatest test

2009-03-13T15:40:00.006+08:00

Ok people i'm back. Sorry for not updating for the past few days. I just came back from camp feast last tuesday and was down with serious headache and slight fever few days after that(actually i was already feeling unwell during camp feast itself so ya). Anyway, camp feast was a blast. With the new bunch of great people whom i worked with, i must say that its probably one of the reason why i really had fun during the camp even though i was unwell. Not to mention, playing with someone's pRonunciation pRoblem, hahaha. I just hope that next week, spec course is going to be as fun as camp feast or maybe even better, haha.

Anyway, enough of ncc and camps, back to my personal life. Hang out with my wjla brothers yesterday for the first time since i don't when, so finally it was like full strength on that day, haha. We met up at Mc D(haha, that's so malaysian speaking). It was really nice having to meet up with the rest after a long time of not hanging out together like those good old days. Guess everyone has to move on with life and that's probably one of the reason why we can't really have those good days to come back, once in a while maybe yes.

And one more thing, the fact that we were brought together again yesterday night was mainly because we have overcome one of the many test that god gave us, to be more precise, the test of friendship. Seriously we have gone through thick(and i say thick) and thin together. And to have overcome one of the greatest obstacles god has ever gave in maintaining our friendship to the best possible way it could, i must say, good job my fellow brothers of wjla. We have overcome the test that was given to us and we ought to feel proud of ourselves. Hopefully with this accomplishment, we can go forward still, facing new challenges and most importantly, doing it together if need be. I hope that this is the start of one of the greatest friendship i ever had in this world...

That's it for now, till then have a good memorable life people. With that i take my bow.

live your life to the fullest

2009-03-07T22:55:00.018+08:00

Hey Hey Hey...

Time to update i guess because some people has been bugging me to do so. I went to hq today at early hours of 7am(stop having that negative thinking like i got no life cos i know you are thinking that way). There was west district freestyle drill competition. So me and a few of my other fellow cadet officers decided to help out. It was quite an eye opener for me since it was the first time i witnessed any freestyle drill competition. It was ok i would say. Some schools did put up a good show and should deserve some form of appreciation i guess. RV girls emerge west champions and i guess that should be obvious from the performance that they had put up. So that's about it on what happened at hq just now.

Now i realise that NCC has been a part of me for so long know. NCC its like 1/3 of my life already(haha i know, i'm crazy). Sometimes the more i want to start to tone down on ncc and stop thinking of ncc, it just comes and bounces back to me twice as hard. But i know someday i have to stop for good to carry on my other assignments in life. I have been left behind for so long now that i look at it(this is something much more personal) but i can't and never will blame ncc for where am i right now cos if it was not for this cca which i took 5 years ago, i wouldn't even possessed much leadership qualities as i do right now(not saying that i have a lot of them but to a certain level...i hope so).

I am kind of confused now actually but i don't want this confusion to follow me throughout my whole life. I hope god will show me the path, THE right path for me. My life is like running on a treadmill,whereby i had fell down and was brought to the back. That's not the hardest part. The hardest part is to get back up and continuing running on the treadmill. That's what i am doing right now or at least trying to do. Sooner or later i know i have to get back up and i know it will not be easy. But, i'm to blame and i have to clean up the mess that i had started.

I just hope that i can have the strength to do it though a part of me is just telling me to forgo everything. I just HOPE.....

(guess this is when it is put to the real test)

great start i guess...

2009-03-04T22:58:00.010+08:00

Hey ya people!

You know what, I am actually starting to like the fact of me having a blog now(mcm best sey!hahaha). But seriously its kinda fun actually. The fun that i never realise before(and now i'm starting to realise how stupid am i for not realising that fact). So ya, hope that with this 'fun', i can keep my blog updated frequently. Then again, i hope.

And check out my tag board btw. Its only the second day of me having this blog and hell yea, the support was really awesome. Thanks you guys out there for having it filled up with your marvelous tags(haha....angkat!!)

Also, check out this video...

For those of you out there who simply love R&B, this video should be a good one. This video has been out on youtube for ages already but nevertheless it is still a good one to watch over and over again. Legaci, that's what they call themselves. I really wish i could have that kind of voice, especially Chris'. His voice is simply the best:). So ya, hope you guys will enjoy this one.

So that's it for now and take care everyone. With that i take my bow.(=

First post ever!!!

2009-03-04T01:38:00.001+08:00

Hey ya people!

Welcome to my blog firstly.This is my first ever post on this blog so i guess it would be quite dry. Anyway,i didn't really want to have a blog at first but after much consideration,i guess why not right? Plus seeing the fact that most of my friends all have their own blogs(updated or not updated is another story), the urge of me getting my own blog seems higher i guess. So ya.

Anyway a little bit about myself. My name's Hashim and 3rd of April is my birthday.(I guess i wouldn't want to go into much more details cos its kinda confidential)haha, that's why i said little. My goal in life is to live a very very meaningful life before hitting that ground seven feet under(if you know what i mean) and most importantly to be a loyal servant to Allah, my only god in this world.

So i guess that should be it for my first ever post. There are more to come for sure so till then take care everyone. With that, i take my bow.(=

(guess the post is not really that dry eh)